A tumblr post about Caleb looking up to and emulating Beau like a little brother cause shes's so cool (trying the single push up, the arms thing) somehow morphed in my brain into him fantasizing about her and feeling like guilty trash because she's probably his closest friend aside from Nott and also, super gay. And then I thought, let's include Jester and Yasha in there too, since they're a strong. couple of women.

SO - I'm looking for Caleb-typical self-loathing as he masturbates to the thought of his companions. Not even imagining them having sex with him or each other, necessarily. More focused on appreciating their individual ripped/toned bodies.